late 1950 //

[betagainstme]

A few days after a victory with Edward, Alice still has an unsettled feeling in the pit of her stomach.

First, Edward's tiny non-reaction to her visions upon waking up, and second, the weighty knowledge of her lack of knowledge. Of her waking up alone and trying to figure out what comes next. It's been thirty years since that happened but she's never...talked about it with anyone, other than Jasper, who has no idea what it is like.

Waking up, completely changed, completely alone.

She wanders down the hall of the first floor, still learning the layout of the house and searching for Carlisle. Unsurprisingly, she finds him in his office, sitting at his desk. Tapping her fingers against the doorjamb, she gives a little wave. "Hey, Carlisle. Can I come in?"

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[betagainstme]

“I imagine not,” she murmurs.

She’s focusing on the facts he’s given her, the hazy vision of red eyes and black cloaks forming a little clearer. Opulence and elegance.

[ofthefamily]

"I eventually started calling them the Dais. I went there to not be alone, and I certainly learned more than I ever would have living in French chalk mines.

"But they weren't." A pause here, and for all intents and purposes, Carlisle looks like he's looking for something, eyes cast upward and mouth curved on one side. Like investigating a problem.

"They weren't kind. And I was a curiosity, more than anything. At least at the beginning. Then I became an aberration."

[betagainstme]

“What did...what did they do?”

With him? To him? She’s not sure which she’s asking, but she grimaces at the question. Then, shaking her head:

“What did you do?”

[ofthefamily]

"You would deny me my prey, English?"

"They wanted me to be like them. When I chose not to, tensions rose to a point where I had to leave. So I escaped. I'll be honest, I'm not entirely sure how I was successful. Maybe I became boring and someone decided to let me go."

Doubtful.

"After I left I think I ran for about a month."

[betagainstme]

“Carlisle,” she breathes, sadness in her eyes, tone, whole being.

This man, who was so kind and so good, brought to near madness by these people? And she’s having visions of them?

It’s enough to put her off visiting Italy forever.

“I’m so sorry.” She shakes her head, fingers fiddling with her dress again. “God, Carlisle—“

[ofthefamily]

"What are you apologizing for? It happened. That was literally hundreds of years ago."

It's abrupt, a cross between trying to make Alice feel better and the scientific pragmatism which helps Carlisle navigate so much.

[betagainstme]

She presses her lips together and frowns.

“Still. You didn’t deserve that, and I’m sorry for bringing it up again.”

[ofthefamily]

"You deserve to know. The Volturi can impact much of a vampire's life, so it's important. And, well - as you can tell...

"My life is a lot better than it used to be."

[betagainstme]

This settles a few things for her.

One--she will be watching for the Volturi and their decisions from now on, knowing a little more about them may make that easier.

Two--she will make sure they do not get their hands on Carlisle again.

Three--Carlisle's future will be steadily watched as well, just in case.

She nods, a smile coming to her lips as she thinks about the rest of Carlisle's family. "Yes, you should be proud of the accomplishments and family you've made with the others. It's a life most don't dream of living, in our situations."

[ofthefamily]

"I fouled up a lot along the way, my dear."

[betagainstme]

"Well, if the past is the past..."


Alice drifts off, raising an eyebrow as a challenge, a soft smile on her lips.

[ofthefamily]

A tsk of protest.

"Don't you realize by now that my sage advice is only sage to the family, not to myself?"

[betagainstme]

"Hey, I'm still learning." Alice places her hands up in the air. "It's only been a few months, and I haven't gleaned all of your secrets yet."

[ofthefamily]

"Good luck with that. You've got 310 years to get through. Not that all of them were eventful.

"I hope you'll find the effort worthwhile."

[betagainstme]

"Well, unless you're planning on kicking us out any time soon, I think I'll have the time."

She's smiling but also...please don't kick her out?

[ofthefamily]

"How could I? Esme would slaughter me."

[betagainstme]

"Well, as long as Esme loves me," Alice leans forward, her elbows on her knees. "Then I guess I'm safe."

[ofthefamily]

"Enh, you may have a couple more people who want you to stay around than just Esme."

[betagainstme]

“Oh, good.” Alice laughs brightly. “So we’ve got Esme and Emmett on our side, Rosalie and Edward as maybes and you..?”

[ofthefamily]

"Is there actually a question of my opinion here?"

[betagainstme]

“Well, I didn’t want to put words in your mouth, mon père.”

[ofthefamily]

Saying I love you is complex, somehow. He only says it to Esme with any regularity. And the rest of the family was born out of need and his own motivations. Nobody else just appeared like Alice and Jasper did.

Carlisle has never had the time before to decide to love someone.

So he goes for the most true thing he knows.

"I could not be happier that you are here."

[betagainstme]

Alice stands and is by his side in an instant, dipping forward with her hands behind her back to press a light kiss against his cheek. “Me too, Carlisle. Thank you.”

She knows love is harder than she thinks it is.

Alice has loved them since the 1920s, when she could barely make out their faces. A family. One day, hers.

But they will. He will. Love her.

[ofthefamily]

"You're welcome."

While she is still close, a question occurs to Carlisle, though Alice likely picks it up before he voices it. "Will you let me know, if you have any other questions? Or visions, about them?"

[betagainstme]

"Of course," Alice whispers, her hand closing on his shoulder. "Always. Should I keep an eye on anything in particular?"